Last year when I went to AWA (Anime Weekend Atlanta), I got to meet one of my heroes, Vic Mignogna. He gave advice during a panel to think of what you're thankful for every day for five minutes. This week I decided to finally try it. No matter how down I may feel, I try to take some time to think about what I'm thankful for, for a few minutes. I think about all the people who support me, especially my husband and my family. I think about how thankful I am to have pets (one lives with my parents), they're like the babies I'll never be able to have. I'm thankful to have a merciful God, because as hard as life may seem, it could always be a hell of a lot worse. I'm thankful for the apartment I live in. I'm thankful to have food I can eat. I'm thankful for clean water. Last night I had a very terrifying dream, and when I woke up I thanked God that it wasn't real; it was just a dream. As much as I want to escape my life, I'm thankful at the same time that I am still alive. I know that may sound weird coming from someone who's always suicidal. It's hard to explain. I mean, I should be dead after having three suicide attempts, but God saved me from them for a reason. What that reason is I have no idea.
I'm the most pessimist person out there; it's really difficult for me to think positively because I ALWAYS focus on the negative. This week though, when I've taken a few minutes during the day to think of what I'm thankful for, it has really helped! I'm not focusing so much on the negatives in my life. I'm even more determined to get healthier mentally and physically. I guess health starts in the mind. If someone like me can find things to be thankful for, you can too!
Thanks Vic for the advice last year! It's really been helping me! I hope you'll be back this year!